I’m not good with people.
Really. I teach around a hundred wonderful children, claim a score of loyal friends, and I try to be courteous to cashiers. At the end of the day, though, I really prefer being alone to being around 14 people in a beach house for a weekend.
I wonder: what does this make me? A bad person? Self-centered? Depressed? Rude? Perhaps I am perceived as a cocktail of negative reactions. It’s not that I dislike people. Most people are relatively enjoyable, and God loves them all equally. I don’t feel that I should measure them more harshly than God. I don’t think the individual matters at all. When I say, “I’m not good with people,” I mean, “with people… I’m not good.”
With that, I will add to my list of Awesome Things.
#7 A vacation from vacation: I love the beach and eating out and even the ~8 hour drive to the beach, but what really excites me now is not being on vacation. Thank God for a relatively empty house and my own bed!
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